Hello, its 10.15am. And im here posting, you all should be wondering why am i online and thats cause im at Tiffany's house right now! Dont get disappointed that im not at school, im just a little unwell still, so yeah; "aww."

Dont give me false hope. Dont give up, just as long as you dont mess me up, Love..

For you.

I never wanted anything. Because I had the best. That was when you showered me with your love and care. What about now? You asking me? You cant keep on hurting me and dont lose anything. I know you regret, i have my regrets too. Regretted giving you that chance. I had to choose, to leave, or to give you a chance. But both choices would hurt me. Because when i held on to you, i got hurt, but i cant forgive because what you said cant heal my broken heart. You dont know how much it tears me apart, to see you cry, begging me for forgiveness.. But i cant always give, because i've gave you everything i had. You say you know its too late, you say you'd do anything for me except letting me go, but you knew my answer to your query was always, "Forget me." What you've said before, you didnt say they were lies, you showed me they were. So how am i gonna trust you or believe what you tell me now when you've lied thrice more than what you said. You say you blame you, you say you want me, you say just once more but that was the last! Its been almost a year, we went through most things together, but not everything. I dont want a lonely Valentine's day or lonely birthday either. But i ain't looking back, dude. Foolish of me to fall ten times and only till now, you know what? I AIN'T FALLING, AGAIN. :) Yes, i ain't gonna let go yet but thats because i cant. I ain't moving on yet, but i will, whether it takes me 14 seconds, 14 minutes, 14 hours, 14 days, 14 weeks, 14 months or 14 years, im better off without you! You were my best. But if i could find my best, im sure i can do it better again. Because i've tasted and got the best once, thats why its making it so hard for me now, because the best's gone but i know im gonna be fine. Without me, i'd never get to taste moments better than this 'best', in the future. So i'll move, i'll try to, even if it hurts, even if this loneliness might make me cry, i got so much hurt from you, so much that the painful might just feel like a noob prick now. Even though trying to let go might hurt more than giving you a chance, i know i can do it. Thanks for building my defence, and training me to put up with so much hurt. Im not going back anymore.

PS: Superhuman? Nah, im better than that.

Tell me, tell me what you want from me. And there you tell me you love me, you cant live without me, begging for another chance, then why in the first place, do you want to hurt me? You thought you'd have more chances even though i said this was the last, you're wrong. I cant keep giving in like this, all this while im suffering and you just beg for chances, now i have nothing left to give you. Because you took away everything from me. People find me stupid to make up, break up, make up and break up with you. Because im hurting myself, by giving you chances. Im crying for my loss, dying for your love, your true love. But your promises? You broke them all. You dont feel hurt cause you're not going through what i went through. Dont you realise? You're always the one hurting me and im always the one suffering, you're the one not losing anything, but im the one giving out chances and getting hurt. You wont lose anything, because you have two.. And even though im already gone, you still have her. So what for break my heart, when you have another?

PS: What do we have to clear up?

This is for you..

Why? Why did you promised me in the first place, why do you keep giving me false hope. You shouldn't have said those stuffs before, we shouldn't have maked up. Only till now, i've realised that you cheated on me twice not once, this time round. Why.. I cant spell it out for you anymore, you know its not simple. You know i'd be so hurt, you know i love you alot, you know im afraid to get hurt, you know me inside out and you just hurt me like this..... How? How do you expect me to accept such nonsence? How do you expect me to move on when i dont have the strength to take all this hurt. How?! I never hated you.. I never asked for anything more, i said i only needed you, i meant it. But you wanted both, you wanted two. Why are you so selfish, why are you doing this to me, tell me what i've done, can you? I just dont understand why im so stupid to trust you. I hate myself.

PS: You dont know how much i've cried, you dont know my heart aches, cause you dont feel me.

Why did you have to do things behind me which hurt so deep. I entrusted you with this chance, and you just took it for granted, took it to hurt me once more. Why.. I said before i gave you this chance, that this would be the last, and if you hurt me again i would'nt contact you again. Can i do this? Can i? No i cant, because im so stuck with you, i've never let you go, never hold you loosely in my heart, but why are you hurting me like this.. You dont have to worry cause you're not the one getting hurt, you dont have to suffer, cause you're not the one crying, you dont have to be afraid you'll be alone, cause you wont lose anything, its me, its me who have lost everything. So stupid of me, foolish, dumb, and brainless, to be taken in by your words so easily, and there, i let you hurt me again. Why do you have to do this, i've not let you down in any ways yet, and you're letting yourself hurt me.. I thought you'd protect me? I thought you were the one pushing the hurt away, not the one hurting me instead. Why, can you tell me now. CAN YOU FUCKING GIVE ME YOUR THOUGHTS, ANSWERS. Why did you have to hurt me like this?

PS: You knew i love you so much, that you chose to hurt me.