There's nothing either good or bad, But thinking makes it so.

What do you want from me?

By Michiee · February 9, 2010 · 0 Comments · 2 Views

Hello, its 10.15am. And im here posting, you all should be wondering why am i online and thats cause im at Tiffany's house right now! Dont get disappointed that im not at school, im just a little unwell still, so yeah; "aww."

Dont give me false hope. Dont give up, just as long as you dont mess me up, Love..

Littlest things.

By Michiee · February 7, 2010 · 0 Comments · 804 Views

(Taken on Friday)

Hello there hunnies!

So long since i've posted, its like school is taking up most of the time in my current lifestyle :O Dont get a little shock if you see me pointing at you right now! I specially featured this picture because i realise there's many things i can talk about it. *winks. Well.. I dont really know where to start from but here we go!

To all the single ladies out there: When Valentine's day is on its way and you just lost somebody, lost somebody whom you trusted, lost somebody whom you'd share your burdens with and somebody whom you gave all your love to. Dont be afraid to be alone, dont be afraid that you wont be able to forget him or let go, dont be afraid to cry, dont be afraid to look, because you cant accept the fact that he's gone, but you're in your place of reality. No matter what, the whole world moves with you, even Earth. Dont be afraid that you're stuck, cause only You can choose your own paths. Without You, you'll never stop crying, you'll never know what could be more beautiful than the memories you had with him, if you dont make the right decisions. Well, there's nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so, and only you know Yourself best. Well, it doesn't really matter if you choose to go back to him, or to leave indefinitely. That's because, we all know that both choices would hurt us. When you give him a chance, you'd worry about getting hurt again, when you leave, you'd worry he'd do things to hurt you even though just the simplest, littlest things can hurt you indirectly. But it's always the pain that makes us stronger and if each step we take to move feels like walking on fire, then we'd step back, try again faster, try harder. But when time comes, when we move fast enough for the fire to get put out, it shows how much we're able to put up with. ;]

I've got so much more to say but i don't know where all my words ran to, can't seem to think of anything better to say, ha! Let me summarise what i wanna say;

Y.O.U.!

Go and try figure that out :)

Friday, went to meet Melvin & co, Bugis > Town > Home.

Saturday, Last minute meet Melvin & co. Redhill > Vivo > Home.

Caught Avatar 3D @ Vivo, 12.30!!!! Ended at 3.30am. I was coughing during the whole of the 3 hours film.

PS: You've left me behind, i'd catch up with you somehow. Slow and steady wins the race! *winks.

My heart's suffocating.

By Michiee · February 3, 2010 · 0 Comments · 3 Views


For you.

The truth hurts, the lies; worse.

By Michiee · February 2, 2010 · 0 Comments · 2 Views

I never wanted anything. Because I had the best. That was when you showered me with your love and care. What about now? You asking me? You cant keep on hurting me and dont lose anything. I know you regret, i have my regrets too. Regretted giving you that chance. I had to choose, to leave, or to give you a chance. But both choices would hurt me. Because when i held on to you, i got hurt, but i cant forgive because what you said cant heal my broken heart. You dont know how much it tears me apart, to see you cry, begging me for forgiveness.. But i cant always give, because i've gave you everything i had. You say you know its too late, you say you'd do anything for me except letting me go, but you knew my answer to your query was always, "Forget me." What you've said before, you didnt say they were lies, you showed me they were. So how am i gonna trust you or believe what you tell me now when you've lied thrice more than what you said. You say you blame you, you say you want me, you say just once more but that was the last! Its been almost a year, we went through most things together, but not everything. I dont want a lonely Valentine's day or lonely birthday either. But i ain't looking back, dude. Foolish of me to fall ten times and only till now, you know what? I AIN'T FALLING, AGAIN. :) Yes, i ain't gonna let go yet but thats because i cant. I ain't moving on yet, but i will, whether it takes me 14 seconds, 14 minutes, 14 hours, 14 days, 14 weeks, 14 months or 14 years, im better off without you! You were my best. But if i could find my best, im sure i can do it better again. Because i've tasted and got the best once, thats why its making it so hard for me now, because the best's gone but i know im gonna be fine. Without me, i'd never get to taste moments better than this 'best', in the future. So i'll move, i'll try to, even if it hurts, even if this loneliness might make me cry, i got so much hurt from you, so much that the painful might just feel like a noob prick now. Even though trying to let go might hurt more than giving you a chance, i know i can do it. Thanks for building my defence, and training me to put up with so much hurt. Im not going back anymore.

PS: Superhuman? Nah, im better than that.

What am i supposed to do, when the best part of me is always you.

By Michiee · January 31, 2010 · 0 Comments · 2,292 Views

Yesterday, Ion > Tangs > Fareast > Home > 842 > Sentosa.

Reached Sentosa @ 1am. Power :)

Lazy to elaborate, here comes pics.

I can tell you where it hurts.

By Michiee · January 27, 2010 · 0 Comments · 1 Views

Tell me, tell me what you want from me. And there you tell me you love me, you cant live without me, begging for another chance, then why in the first place, do you want to hurt me? You thought you'd have more chances even though i said this was the last, you're wrong. I cant keep giving in like this, all this while im suffering and you just beg for chances, now i have nothing left to give you. Because you took away everything from me. People find me stupid to make up, break up, make up and break up with you. Because im hurting myself, by giving you chances. Im crying for my loss, dying for your love, your true love. But your promises? You broke them all. You dont feel hurt cause you're not going through what i went through. Dont you realise? You're always the one hurting me and im always the one suffering, you're the one not losing anything, but im the one giving out chances and getting hurt. You wont lose anything, because you have two.. And even though im already gone, you still have her. So what for break my heart, when you have another?

PS: What do we have to clear up?

Because i still love you.

By Michiee · January 26, 2010 · 0 Comments · 4 Views

This is for you..

If you just realised what i just realised, then we'd be perfect for each other, never gonna find another.

By Michiee · January 25, 2010 · 0 Comments · 2 Views

Why? Why did you promised me in the first place, why do you keep giving me false hope. You shouldn't have said those stuffs before, we shouldn't have maked up. Only till now, i've realised that you cheated on me twice not once, this time round. Why.. I cant spell it out for you anymore, you know its not simple. You know i'd be so hurt, you know i love you alot, you know im afraid to get hurt, you know me inside out and you just hurt me like this..... How? How do you expect me to accept such nonsence? How do you expect me to move on when i dont have the strength to take all this hurt. How?! I never hated you.. I never asked for anything more, i said i only needed you, i meant it. But you wanted both, you wanted two. Why are you so selfish, why are you doing this to me, tell me what i've done, can you? I just dont understand why im so stupid to trust you. I hate myself.

PS: You dont know how much i've cried, you dont know my heart aches, cause you dont feel me.

Thanks, for cheating on me, love.

By Michiee · January 24, 2010 · 0 Comments · 1 Views

Why did you have to do things behind me which hurt so deep. I entrusted you with this chance, and you just took it for granted, took it to hurt me once more. Why.. I said before i gave you this chance, that this would be the last, and if you hurt me again i would'nt contact you again. Can i do this? Can i? No i cant, because im so stuck with you, i've never let you go, never hold you loosely in my heart, but why are you hurting me like this.. You dont have to worry cause you're not the one getting hurt, you dont have to suffer, cause you're not the one crying, you dont have to be afraid you'll be alone, cause you wont lose anything, its me, its me who have lost everything. So stupid of me, foolish, dumb, and brainless, to be taken in by your words so easily, and there, i let you hurt me again. Why do you have to do this, i've not let you down in any ways yet, and you're letting yourself hurt me.. I thought you'd protect me? I thought you were the one pushing the hurt away, not the one hurting me instead. Why, can you tell me now. CAN YOU FUCKING GIVE ME YOUR THOUGHTS, ANSWERS. Why did you have to hurt me like this?

PS: You knew i love you so much, that you chose to hurt me.

Take all of them away..

By Michiee · January 20, 2010 · 0 Comments · 1,715 Views

Last Saturday, went Douby Ghourt with Jasmine ^^. Had BBQ chix @ T1. Shopped and then headed to DG. Shopped @ Daiso there! :O Bought the usual customised browinie i'd buy from P.osh. Haven't tried anything from there because i've been buying them for others :(

Sunday, slacked @ 201 area.

Monday, Elaine's birthday. ^^ Happy birthday! :)

And the fucking rain yesterday.. I fell sick! Flu, and a damn fucking bad headache. My eyebags are horrible! No time for masks either. Argh, i want to go to school today! I want do cip :(

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