Some yummy sort-of cake my mom bought for breakfast for me. Its a strawberry jelly + a layer of cheese + biscuit base cake. Lol! Cant find other ways of describing it. I've started wrok yesterday. Though tiring, but i believe i'll get used to it soon. Haha just got back from malaysia school trip. Managed to get a pretty necklace for Mom! Dont know how to describe it but its a special one, special as in how it works haha. Many things are changing and happening so rapidly, even time seems to pass real fast and slow, slow especially during work, of course. Dont kow if there's enough time for both Felicia beebee and me for our our blogshop.
Sort of got back my results, i expected the fall, but i managed to improve though. Hopefully i manage to get into the class, the last class of express, which is my only hope already. Still afraid of retaining as well as getting demoted though, but im praying hard! Tomorrow is the last the of school already, this year has gone so quickly, and i made quite alot of new friends in class, even though i missed almost half a year, i managed to get some trustable and close friends. Lol, cant imagine how holidays would be like, everyone working. Wondering if we would drift, especially the girls and boys.
So long since i've mentioned about my dearest, Baby. Quarrels, then make up, as usual. But things are getting worser and woser, thats for how i see things. Im afraid of drifting, or even losing him. Especially when both of us would be working.
PS: You're making me lose trust in you. Even though i love you, even though i still care, you're doing things to make me feel otherwise. I believe there're many things still hidden from me, away from reality, my reality. I rather you shoot them all out at once now, i had enough hurt already. Things you do that make me upset always overcome things you do that make me happy. I know i shouldn't be comparing now, but i had enough, enough of the hurt, the lies and the hidden, enough of everything! You promise and promise, yet you break the promises again and over again. Im more important than your pride? Then prove it to me! Things aren't going as well as what you promised, what i believed would happen. You said you would make up to me, you said time will heal the pain. Everything is still back to original, or should i say, worser? I ain't feeling any difference inside, i see no use nor cure waiting for the time to pass when nothing's working at all. I've been trying my best to hold on, even till now. What about you? In my eyes, you're making things worse, you only love hurting me, that phrase, i think you know what i mean. You say you dont want to quarrel, but you're making it worse, you're the one causing them. You say and say, you promise and promise, but are you showing that they will happen. Are you trying to gain or lose trust from me? I've been waiting for the actions, but the past, here they go again, repeating its history. I know you're getting vexed over some external and internal issues, im still here for you. I haven't totally forgotten about you, i still care as much as i do. But do you?
Alright now, i'll go and idle with my stuffs. Bye! ^^
